And Rainbow's do taste like sherbet sticks.

2012-03-04T21:27:00.002Z

Recently I've been feeling far from myself. As if I'm looking through the eyes of another, but seeing them move.
Kind of like dreaming, you know the movements, but it doesn't seem all you.

I don't know how to explain it, its just a weird feeling, almost feels like I'm looking back on my life, this has already happened. I don't know where my mind is at the moment, its slowly degraded into dust.

I need to build it back again. Struggling through work and life in general. Maybe I'm figuring who I am again.

2012-03-04T21:00:00.003Z

I should be doing my work but then procrastinating takes its course.

-deciding what to eat
-switching songs
-Facebook
-changing clothes
-taking to housemates
-changing desktop background 10million times
-Blogging.

procrastinating

2012-03-04T20:59:00.002Z

temp temp temps

2012-03-01T19:43:00.001Z

permanent teeth?

2012-02-29T15:12:00.001Z

2012-02-26T16:57:00.002Z

look for a house to buyk found oneno, look for a house to rentk found one no, look for a house to buyIN A FRIGGEN INFINITE LOOP.

2012-02-24T05:39:00.001Z

just played a 6 hour game of monopolyand i lost.

trololol

2012-02-23T21:02:00.003Z

Dad: So what do you study?Gus (my housemate): Interactive Media ProductionDad: What do you do?Me: He just presses the red button

2012-02-22T14:55:00.001Z

BTW

2012-02-15T08:32:00.000Z

I really do miss you guys.

2012-02-15T08:28:00.001Z

sfsdfsdf.

2012-02-15T08:13:00.002Z

I go through an insane amount of mood swings, I don't know if mood swings is the right term, but I'm just keep changing my state of mind.

Yesterday I felt so crappy, I think its cause I realised I was kidding myself by mixing expectations with reality. They never really match up.

This term I've just been feeling so far from myself, it feels like someone has stolen my overall drive in life. Or maybe I'm just growing up and the definition of fun has changed.

I was just so care free, having fun, working hard and eating well. Yet now, I'm very strict on myself, have less fun, do less work and eat less. I even don't bother on my dress sense as much as I used to.

I'm probably over thinking the situation as I always do, yet at the same time, am I?

I probably just need to remember to not give a shit, forget all the negative crap cause thats whats bringing me down. Stop over-thinking every situation and just go with the flow.

I think I just got a reality check yesterday and should now remember to not rely on anyone, just work for ones self and if people want to help, let them. But don't rely on them. Reliance is bad. I need to become stronger minded and focused.

I'll probably look back on this post when I'm more like happy self and be like WTF was going on.

ah Fuck it.

2012-02-14T23:54:00.001Z

Its annoying when you put so much effort into a person and they show no emotion.

I guess its probably karma with the number of people I've been ignoring this year however I really feel overused and unknown.

I feel like I'm slowly fading away, I don't know where my 'true' self has gone. I've lost passion, creativity and the overall fundamentals of talking.

I hope I come back to my normal self and am full of life again.

temporary crowns

2012-02-08T20:36:00.001Z

eurhg

2012-02-07T17:29:00.001Z

i hate clubbing.
thats why i overly drink so everything is a blur.

a good way to pretend to be social.

literally all my friends are guys.

2012-02-07T17:27:00.001Z

2012-01-30T15:00:00.002Z

I feel so empty inside. I really don't know why.I keep playing the same song over and over and hate talking to people.I been feeling like this for a couple of weeks, I might be upset subconsciously about me teeth.I know its getting fixed, I just. I dunno.I just feel numb and hopeless.Hopefully its just a phase.

2012-01-29T11:32:00.002Z

oh yeah, my tooth fell out yesterday morning. -____-i have to use denture glue to stick it back on...even my nan doesn't use denture glue!I feel old.Also went to my friend's flat to watch a movie last night and I laughed so hard my tooth flew out!LUCKILY it was dark, so no one noticed.

one of the most epic movie's ever

2012-01-29T11:31:00.000Z

(also watched this while I was high, was a whole new experience)

2012-01-20T15:26:00.001Z

modelled this today

2012-01-20T15:25:00.001Z

got a temporary filling done :/

i miss my other teeth :(

felt like modeling this

2012-01-19T14:31:00.001Z

haven't textured the barrel yet, still learning z brush

2012-01-18T13:31:00.001Z

i kinda smacked my face against a toilet and sorta lost my two front teeth.

Term 2: University

2012-01-12T23:19:00.001Z

New Term.I'm going to try and post blog posts more often, I've been terrible since I've started Uni.Just feel really down at the moment, I don't know what it is. I'm lacking something. I'm going back into my insecure phase, hopefully it's just a phase.Got so much to do this week.>Sort out how I'm going to raise £3000>Return Library Books>Hand in Essay>Learn Programming>Learn Maya>Do some sketches for this outside project>Learn how to drawI've forgotten how to talk to people as well. I might just be being really douchey at the moment.Making potato waffles to have with some cheese. The easiest and less washing up meal.Kinda like toast.

break down

2011-11-22T16:49:00.001Z

I feel like crap.everything is just going wrong.I've made loads of friends and have the whole social thing in order, but my class is just so competitive.When I think I've done something good, I look over my shoulder and my class mate has done something like 10 times better then me. Everyone is just learning a lot quicker than me and I just feeling the whole outcastness.I have everything I could want, living out, have great friends, am in the best university for my course but its just the course thats getting intense.Also its so different to foundation at Chelsea, here we get marked 70% on the final product and like 10% on research whereas Chelsea it was all about experimentation.Its so technical and you have to be a perfectionist. A word that has never been in my dictionary.And I've recently been having this pain in lower right of my pelvis, its not linked womanly I don't think but I just kills and I had to miss my lecture today cause the pain was just too much. Went to the school nurse and they said to come tomorrow morning, so I hope it calms down by then. But at the moment it hurts and I have so much work to do, but I physically can't do it.It's hard enough writing this blog post.Spent the last two hours in my bed, watching Amelie with a water bottle. I don't want to tell my mum cause I know she's going to get overly worried, I just hope this sorts out by tomorrow.Have a deadline next week on friday and literally have done very little work for that.I'm just questioning what I'm doing on this course, I feel like I have an ant brain in comparison to everyone else.Its Technical > Creativity which I guess I should have known with the whole course being 'Computer Animation'. Its not like I don't enjoy it, it's just that my work is like dust in comparison.I hope things sort out.Bob Marley is on repeat again.

2011-11-17T20:49:00.001Z

Kilimanjaro from Ben Crabb on Vimeo.

might do this...

2011-11-04T11:33:00.001Z

2011-10-24T22:30:00.001+01:00

theres so much to say.

so little time to say it.

got me a bournemouth university hoody!

2011-10-17T22:09:00.001+01:00

aren't I cool!

(note. I've recently been having an obsession with burgundy)

2011-10-09T11:15:00.000+01:00

fuck what i said in the last post...boys suck.

2011-10-06T14:01:00.001+01:00

uni is going good.

theres this guy that i may get involved with but i dunno.

early days....

2011-10-06T14:00:00.001+01:00

2011-09-25T11:51:00.001+01:00

yesterday was seriously one the best nights of my life!

went to the beach at like midnight and met some people with a guitar and weed.

we ended up making a tent out of sleeping bags and my slanket and just sang along to songs on my ipod. one of which was spice girls.

tried some disgusting wine and some other really strong drink that just burned my neck.
we were so cold so we all cuddle up so close together.

got woken up by the coast guard at 4am.

went back to our accomodation with 3 awesome guys (tom and hannah were with me also)
then just fell asleep in the kitchen.

woke up this morning and everything down to the microwave was turned upside down.

this is why there is more to life than clubbing.

note: my sore throat has benefited from any of this.

2011-09-24T06:25:00.000+01:00

some people are so stupid its unreal.

these people are all 18 years old or over and are acting like spastics from high school.

some people just need to grow some and remember that their mother is not going to clean up after them.

argh.

2011-09-23T22:54:00.000+01:00

yeah uni has been a confidence builder, it has also been a bit of an eye opener.

i've totally been myself (which has been hard, cause I'm so insecure) and have been called a retard by my flat mate.

i hope he was joking.

anyways. I've finally understood what being yourself really means. forget all the people who think you are an idiot, negative people are not going to boost your self esteem much, they make you just feel like you should shut up and sit in a corner. whatver. i dunno, maybe this is the lemsip talking, but being a social outcast has its down moments.

right now being ill, is one of them.

i haven't met anyone creative yet, most of the people i've met let the alcohol talk rather than themselves.

ah fuck it. people are annoying sometimes.

view.

2011-09-22T10:39:00.002+01:00

2011-09-19T21:16:00.000+01:00

Uni life is a bit of a roller coaster.
went for a long walk around the town/seaside with my friend Gus.
and watched dark knight with him in my room too.
(don't get the wrong impression guys, he's just a friend)

but am starting to feel like i'm lingering around him too much (cause i don't know anyone else :/) or maybe i'm just being paranoid.

hopefully after tonight i find some other peeps that are on my level.

have found someone on my course in my accommodation which is awesome!

content/lonely/content/lonely...

the move.

2011-09-19T03:27:00.000+01:00

sarah on skype! our little henry <3

Deez bitches right here are the reason i is awake. brez unhappy cause i can't sleep now :( (thus the reason on blogger)

7 days left. Time to panic!

2011-09-10T10:17:00.001+01:00

2011-09-10T09:56:00.002+01:00

Student Finance Sorted

2011-09-02T09:09:00.003+01:00

YAY!

Mad

2011-08-31T14:16:00.004+01:00

(a small note written on the side of one of my maths papers)

I have no idea how this belief infected my mind.

I have this huge obsession with the number 3. I've related my whole life to this one number. Why? Because I believe that if I allowed the number 3 into my life, it will make me lucky. For example today is the 27th of January which is 3^3.

My birthday is on the 03/07/1992.

1+9+9+2 =21
21-7=14

4-1=3

I'm the third child.

The rule of thirds is in photography/film as well as in poetry.

ICT - 3 letters

This belief still lingers in my thoughts, however its not as obsessive as it used to be.

2011-08-31T12:05:00.001+01:00

Let the maths revision commence

Absolutely adore this song

2011-08-27T12:42:00.001+01:00

its so pretttty! takes me somewhere

YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2011-08-25T11:23:00.000+01:00

Dear Mala

Congratulations! You have been awarded a Bournemouth University Academic Achievement Scholarship.

Batman live

2011-08-25T09:13:00.000+01:00

was incredible!
have got so much love for the costume designer cause each costume was on point, it was all just visually amazing!

and for the first time i got front row seats (i know front row!) and got a free leaflet as well as a lot of batman confetti. If you know Yasmin and I, we got overly excited with the batman confetti.

also cause we were in front row, we were jumped up on by the clowns.

During the circus scene, there were like 30 colourful acrobats, doing all sorts of stunts that ranged from backflips to balancing on a ball. I could go on.

I wanted to take loads of pictures but there were two guys next to us who smelled like beer&cigarettes and were in hoodies. So I wasn't taking any chances.

Dressed up in my joker top and yasmin wore her batman top (get it) lolz

They used batman's and robin's backstory as the main plot; most of the main villans were involved e.g. Poison ivy, Scarecrow, the JOKER obvs, Two-face, Penguin, The Riddler, Harley Quinn & Cat woman

It was witty, energetic and just visually amazing. & getting batman confetti was a bonus.

2011-08-24T15:04:00.002+01:00

Thanks to all for attending the first Computing for Graphics lecture, keep attendance high, and all will be well through out the year.
For each set of slides you will need to set aside two to four hours every week to read the slides, and work out the exercises.

For this session try to "execute" the Turing program by hand.

Remember the program code is:
00 => 00R
01 => 11R
10 => 01L.STOP
11 => 11R

If the input to the above Turing machine is: ...000011100000....
then the Turing machine output should be: ...000011110000....

what the fuuu

OMG I KNEW MATHS WAS INVOLVED NEXT YEAR

2011-08-24T14:59:00.000+01:00

JUST DIDNT KNOW I HAD TO DO FULL ON MATHS TEST!!!

Calculate the binary value of X for the following expressions:
a: X10 = 100112 + 1056 – 234
b:X2= 1011 +100 +100 10 2 3
c: X8 = (1102 + 204) × (325 – 1003) [8 marks]

(from one of the papers)

this looks like friggen alien talk to me
waaah waah waaah :'(

my university list

2011-08-24T12:13:00.002+01:00

Bedding (Duvet/Pillow/Sheets)
Slanket
Towels (Tea towel and the usual ones)
Cups/Saucers/Plates/Cutlery
Cooking Utensils and Saucepans
Sugar/Coffee pot
Salt and pepper Shakers

Magnet Board/Magnets

Clothes/Shoes
Coat Hangers
Laundry Basket
Jewelery

Cuddly bears
Candles
Batman Cards
Posters
CD's?
Books (I need to get some more)

Torch (encase theres a blackout)
Lighter
First Aid Kit
Paracetamol/Ibuprofen
Money Box

Electronics
Apple Mac
Printer?
Camera / Charger
Phone Charger
Game Boy (Games and Charger)
All of the DVD's in my house (i wonder if i can change my lovefilm account to my uni address...hmmm...)
Lamp
Bamboo Tablet
iPod Dock/Radio ?
Calculator (animation uses a lot of math..its not just for my own pleasure)
Plug Extension
Hair Drier
Hair Straightener
Mini Fridge
Voice Recorder
Batteries
USB stick
External Hardrive
Fairy Lights
Light box

Toiletries
Toothbrush/Toothpaste
Face wash
Face Cream
Face Wipes
Shower gel
Shampoo/Conditioner
Body Cream
Baby Oil
Cotton buds
Cotton wool
Nail Varnish Remover
Ex-foliating Gloves
Make up (eye liner, foundation, mascara)
Contact lenses
Washing powder
Washing up liquid/Sponge
Deodorant
Hairbrush/ Hair bobbles/ Hairpins

Arty Stuff
Sketch Books
Water Colours
Pens
Pencils
Notebook
Colouring Pencils
Plain Paper
Pencil Pots
Mini Mannequin
String
Tape
Glue Stick
Scissors
Craft Knife
Craft Mat
Envelopes/Stamps
Post-its

Food (I'll get when I'm there)
Pop corn & Mocha's are on the list so far

Thats more or less everything. Knowing me I'm probably going to be back home a week after wards, so i'll just get my crap then.

sarah

2011-08-23T13:57:00.002+01:00

The origins of animation date back to the birth of visual representation and the magic of the still image springing into life remains powerful today. Christian Balkanski’s shadow theatres evoke pre-animated imagery such as cave drawings, shadow puppets or marionettes. The technologies we now describe as animation emerged from scientific observations of human and animation formation by the ‘chronophotographers’ Eadweard Muybridge and Etienne-Jules Marey at the end of the 19^th century. Muuybridge’ Method of breaking action down into split-second frames allowed him to reassemble still images into life-like portrayals of movement, which he then took on the road as educational entertainment with his travelling zaapraziscope, an early projector.

A comparison of the Lumiere Brothers’ dancing skeleton of 1897 and Ub Iwerk’s Skeleton Dance of 1929- for Walt Disney’s Silly Symphames series-shows how quacking animation devellped in technical possibilityand narratie complexity. Winsor McCay used his pen to breathe life into Fertie th Dinosaur (1914)-the drawing coming to life-a frequent conceit in early cinema that retains its power to amaze and emuse us in Shou Xiaouhu;s short film The Gooey Gentleman (2002). Willis O’Brien, in the Dinosay and the Missing Link: A Prehistoric Tragedy of 1915, initiated a long history of special effects designed to recreate whole worlds of pre-history of mythology, which Steven Speilerg took up using ermerging CGI technologies in Jurrassic Park (1993).

The Brothers Quay combine live-action and manipulated moving image in their film in Absentia (2000) in which a simple room becomes a site of psuchic exploration and even daylight appears to have a purposeful agency of its own. One of John Lasseter’s earliest works, and Pixar Animation Studios’ first production, Luxo Jr. (1986), attests to the abiding poqwe of the apparition-the simple visual image laying claim to life and emotional resonance –just as the technology of film began to cede to that of the computer.

Percy Smith

The birth of a flower 1910

35mm transferred to diginal and tinted balck and white, silent BFI national archive

Etienne-Jules Mary

Falling Cat, 1894, 27 images

Black and white chronophotograph transferred to digital

Cecil M. Hepworth

Explision of a Motor Car, 1900, 1’37

Charles-Emile Reynaud

Pauvre Pierttot, 1892, 6’

Degundo de Ehemon

El Hotel electric 1908, 7”

Unknown Cameraman, produced by the Lumiere brothers

Serpentine Fance 1897-1899

George Melies

Le Melomane 1903 3’

Zhoe Xioahu

The gooey Gentleman 2002

Fleischer Brothers

Out of the inkwell modeling 1921 / The tantalizing fly 1919

J. Suarty Blackton

Humorous phases of funny faces 1906

Character with extraordinary powers are a staple of post-war animation: Marvel and DC comics elaborated an initial line-up, while a parallel, more diverse roll-call was generated by the Japanses manga and anime industries. These ‘superhumans’ are typically all-too-ordinary humans possessed or traumatized in some way, thereby drawn out of the realm of normal experience. So Popeye eats spinanch to become supernaturally strong, while the Hulk is an ordinary young man whose body is chemically altered, giving him remarkable strength couple with a profound sense of alienation.

For all their iconic brilliance, American superheroes struggle to compete with their Japanese counterparts for variety, psychological depth and formal imagination. Astro Boy, created as a manga charater in 1952 by the legendary Osamu Tezuka, was one of the first and he retains his heroic status. Another popular anime series, Sailor Moon (1992-1997) features a seemingly ordinary teenage school-girl endowed with magical powers who battles the forces of evil that threaten Earth.

The global appeal of these figures is remarkable. Japanese anime has gained enormous popularity right across continental Europe and South America, despite its unwavering cultural specificity. The longevity of the superheroes of the West is also notable. The Hulk, for example first appeared in comic form in 1962, the product of the paranoid admiration that surrounded scientific research in the dark days of the Cold War. His co-creator, Stan Lee, also associated him with Frankenstriens’s monster and Golem of Jewish Mythology. The character has been powerful enough to appear in comics, several cartoon and live-action television series, and two feature films (2003 and 2008).

Hayao Miyazaki’s Princess Monoke (1997) demonstrates the breadth of motivation possible in the animated superhero. Ashitaka has been possessed by an evil spirit for killing a giant boar, giving him superhuman strength that destines him to death. San, or Princess Mononoke, is a human girl who has been adopted by wolves and shares many of their qualities. Finally, Lady Eboshi, the ruler of Iron Town, is possessed of such self-addurance and will that she is prepared to bring destruction on the whole world, including her own people.

The 1930’s saw a shift from early, experimental animation to more standardized formats designed to attract larger and more loyal audiences. Key among these was the short film built around identifiable characters. Disney’s Silly symphonies introduced Donald duck and Pluto, and Mickey Mouse grew in popularity after his first appearance in Steamboat Willie in 1928. Max Fleischer’s Betty boop first appeared in the Talkartoons series (1929-32).

Mickey Mouse, Felix the Cat, Tom and Jerry and Bugs Bunny provided clearly delineated characters wit recognizable attributes and strong audience identification. Their more knowing progeny, notably The Simpsons and the cast of South park, not only introduced reflexivity and social commentary, but also allowed for the develppment of themes over time. A second type of character to flourish in animation was the more sustained personality whose motivations could mature through longer films. Woody in Pixar’s Toy Story (1995/1999/2010) us first amoung equals in this regard in both technical and narrative sophistication. The number of distict facial movements he was programmed to make is evidence of the technological innovations designed to satisfy a new audience appetite for ever more complex and compelling virtual beings. More edgily, Ralph Bakshi;s Heavy Traffic (1973) takes a picaresque and unflinching look at 1970’s urban culture through the lives of a group of strongly articulated if supremely dysfunctional characters.

Peter Lord Pioneered in-depth character portrayal in Going Equipped (1989), using clay animation to embody a young petty criminal, the subject’s actual recorded voice providing the narration. Lord was co-founder of Aardman Animations, whose short films, such as Nick Park’s Creature Comforsts (1989), remain unmatched for their humour and humanity.

Caroline Leaf, The owl who married a Goose: An eskimo Legend 1974

Run Wrake, Rabbit, 2005

Animation has served as a repository of folk memory since its genesis. As an art form it has proven uniquely able t interpret fables, fairy tales and other forms of collective storytelling. The phenomenon of animation was global and simultaneous. Ladislas Starewitch released his first animated feature film, The Tale of the fox (1929-30) , in 1937, the same year in which Disney made history with his first feature, Snow Whiteand the Seven Dwarfs, based on the fairy tale by the Brothers Grimm. Chinese animators, having partly embreaced the Disney model stylistically, turned to stories from Chinese myths and folktales for content, to differentiate their output. Transferring age-old stories to film was eased by the persistence of traditional storytelling devices-notably puppets and graphic illustrations-which could now be photographed and animated. Lotte Reiniger’s The Adventures of Prince Achmed (1926) was the most ambitious of her shadow-puppet animations. Sometimes, new technolfies can five form to stories that would otherwise be unlikely to leave their communities of origin, as in Caroline Leaf’s sand animation The Owl Who Married the Goose: An Eskimo Legend (1974). While such figures as Ray Harryhausen have used innovative animation techniques to retell classis stories-The Story of Rapunzel (1952) is shown here-both he and his mentor, Willis O’Brien-The lost world (1925)-have also used stop-motion animation combinded with live action footage to create whole new worlds of mythology, foils to our obsession with modern life. Studio Chibli, founded in 1985 by Hayao Miyazaki and Isao Takahata, has caved out a unique place in world culture with its hugely imaginative productions. Althought occasionally reworking myths, it has largely concentrated on inventing its own. These include epic tales of conflict between men with each other and with nature such as Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind (1984). As well as providing a medium to tell tales drawn from folk memory, animation offers opportunies to construct more individual narratives. Contemporary artists Kara Walker and Nathalie Djurberg both use traditional means for their highly personal engagements with collective memory. Walker uses shadow puppets to capture the near-mythic ast of the Teconstruction period that followed the American Civil War and fuses elements of historical fact with traces if received wisdom.

Ari Folman’s Waltz with Bashir (2008) also addresses historical trauma, this time through the lens of personal experience. The nature of the material demanded new animation techniques, so the entire film was shot as live action and then laboriously transferred on to stroyboards and illustrated. Folman’s Film is haunted by unseen physical presences, which lend his animation a devastating human touch impossible to achieve through a traditional dramatic format.

Jiri Barta’s Golem (pilot, 1993) also moves between the flatness of film-recorded time and the depth of animated memory, its clay-animation technique adding literal weight to the live-action footage. Animation and film, the real and the imagined, the past and the present-all collide in a melancholy meditation as the soul of a community.

Van Beuren Studio, Aesop’s Fables: The Iron Man, 1930

Noburo Ofuji, Harvest Festival (The village Festival) 1930

Winsor McCary, The Sinking of the Lusitania 1916

Willis O’Brien, The Lost World, 1925

Hayao Miyazaki/Studio Ghibli, Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind 1984

Kenzo Masaoka, The spider and the tulip 1943

Wan Gu Chan and Wan Lai Ming, princess iron fan 1941

Latte Reiniger, the adventures of prince achmed 1926

Where apparitions showed how new moving image technologies unleashed the emergence of the animated subject, previously literally unseeable, visions gives evidence of animation’s extension in the late twentieth century into whole virtual worlds. So pervasive has the animated image cecome and so compelling its technological capabilities – not just in terms of CGI realism (breathtaking as this is) but in the emotional persuasiveness of a whole variety of techniques and styles-that the real and the imaginary come close to fusion . Just as the tropes and formats seen in apparitions were derived in part from music hall and other forms of popular entertainment, so the new immersive fictions explored here draw on existing entertainment worlds. Disney’s pioneering film Tron (1982) was inspired by the aesthetic and systems of the nascent gaming industry as developed from the late 1970’s, expanded into a whole world vision. London-base Performance/moving image artists Igloo allow their viewers to navigate a virtual East End underworld with the use of gaming technologies-effectively, they frame the world as a game. Ryan Trecartin builds a disconcerting reality-TV style community portrait , based on the conventions and semantics of e-mail dialogue, which has apparently replaced the temporal, linguistic and other behavioral codes of the analogue world. Semiconductor’s Matter in Motion (2008) presents a series of vignettes which began as photo-documentary snapshots of the Italian city of Milan, transformed as buildings and roads begin to disintegrate and reform, as if their very molecular structures were being reconfigured.

-from barbican

origami

2011-08-20T13:18:00.000+01:00

not as hardcore as the one on tumblr, but yeah.

2011-08-19T16:50:00.000+01:00

OMG GET TO DRESS UP LIKE A ZOMBIEE!!!!

I SO SO SO EXCITED!!!

some new family members

2011-08-18T16:33:00.002+01:00

called them beauty and the beast

cause the black one is a BEAST

doodles and shizz

2011-08-15T10:45:00.000+01:00

This is my elder sister. She looks like an overweight druggy. whoops.

my next door neighbour drew me on the right and i drew him on the left (i made his head, nose and lips too big)

The three below are of my cousin Krishma. They don't look anything like her, atleast they look like people, deformed people, BUT STILL PEOPLE!

Aha can't stop laughing with this one trolololol

need to invest in some footwear

2011-08-13T16:09:00.000+01:00

converse, doc martens and a pair of toms.

trying to be a photographer

2011-08-12T16:03:00.000+01:00

Music Hunt

2011-08-12T15:14:00.002+01:00

Norfolk Camping

2011-08-12T15:11:00.000+01:00

The wind in my hair and the mud in my toes, Gracias Norfolk, you were truly amazing.

2011-07-16T23:17:00.000+01:00

i need to start doing something with my life.

starting from tomorrow.

2011-07-13T12:41:00.002+01:00

This song is just magic

2011-07-13T11:54:00.000+01:00

my favorite family member

2011-07-13T11:44:00.006+01:00

~~i always have these shitty experiences, i dunno if i've done something wrong and karma is coming back and me but life really sucks at the moment.~~

~~i wanted this blog to be a 'life-rant-free' but if i've got nothing else to talk about what am i supposed to do?~~

~~i don't want to put a label on myself, but i'm experiencing a lot of the symptoms of depression.~~

~~nothing amuses me anymore, i'm bored of tv/video games/movies etc~~
~~i sleep alot or daydream most of the time~~
~~i'm getting irritated by everyone~~
~~i cry sometimes for no reason~~
~~i feel like shit all the time~~
~~i talk to myself so much, its unreal~~
~~i hate going outside, even if its to tesco~~
~~my self esteem is like in the minus area~~
~~and i hate talking/listening to anyone~~

~~i don't want to be diagnosed or anything and i think i can get through this, i hope anyway.~~

~~i might just be seriously bored, i dunno.~~

~~i just feel like crap everyday and i don't want any sympathy. (and its kind of ironic writing that i want no synpathy when i'm clearly displaying this on a worldwideblog)~~

~~i know i should appreciate the things i do have but I'm just, I don't know~~

~~i just want to be free, away from everything and everyone.~~

~~i just want to run.~~

fuck it

You down with G-O-D? (Yeah, you know me)

2011-07-11T21:57:00.002+01:00

Who's down with G-O-D?
(Everybody)

2011-07-11T21:24:00.000+01:00

you can't change the wind but you can always adjust the sails.

real talk.

2011-07-11T18:19:00.000+01:00

getting used to my wacom tablet

2011-07-11T16:36:00.001+01:00

yup i'm bored as f**k

summer

2011-07-11T15:22:00.000+01:00

expectations: do animations/intern at an animation company/travel a bit/learn how to backflip

reality: play video games/watch tons of movies/gain weight

2011-07-11T15:19:00.002+01:00

whenever i listen to this, i always think he says 'i can't turn left' zoolander much?

relatives...

2011-07-10T14:22:00.003+01:00

garr!
for the past two months we've been getting reletives from all over the country visit us...EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND!

and like i know they care and everything, with my mum being ill, but its just getting really irritating cause the weekend is usually when you chill out, have a lie in and when don't give a crap about how the house looks.

But no, every single weekend, the same routine, tidy house, comb hair!, greet guests, make tea and act fake for the rest of the day.

its more work for us when relatives come round, i know i shouldn't be ranting, i'm probably being a bit mean but this same routine EVERY WEEKEND?

and my elder sister always has work so i have to be the host...erugh...and with my shitty social skills, most of the time there are awkward silences.

kjshadlksjfhlkfhskjfhpissedoffskdjfksjfdsklfdjslfkdjs

fun, fun, think about fun.

seeing as i haven't had a picture of myself on this for a while

2011-07-06T17:20:00.001+01:00

heres one to tease you!

foto credit: kelsey

four thumb fresh

2011-07-06T14:28:00.001+01:00

dis is some kicking album, summery and shizz.

mouth is born

2011-07-06T14:26:00.001+01:00

i couldnt take any on the sea-side cause weather just decided to drench us all.

2011-07-06T13:54:00.001+01:00

ah chadwell heath sixth formers

2011-06-30T19:27:00.000+01:00

was waiting at the station today and was bombarded by lower sixth formers.

it was tanjana's little brothers crew and they were all saying 'isn't that the girl that had a fight with krishna...bla bla blurghrgrge'
then there was laughing, staring and pointing.

i'm a quite one so i didn't say anything but was thinking what is the point in talking about someone you don't even know, also by them saying what ever they were saying doesn't make their lives any better or my life any worse.

they're lucky i didn't unleash my super powers and zap them to a planet with no oxygen.

bitches.

2011-06-27T20:32:00.000+01:00

2011-06-27T20:27:00.000+01:00

2011-06-27T19:23:00.002+01:00

IM IN A LEAFLET!

2011-06-20T08:54:00.002+01:00

brez famous right now, i'll sign autographs later.

2011-06-16T09:21:00.001+01:00

FRUIT LOOP IN DA HOUSE

2011-06-11T10:20:00.000+01:00

my brother can be really cute sometimes.

2011-06-10T17:12:00.001+01:00

some people *coughdadcough* need to stop taking their anger out on me.

2011-06-10T17:11:00.000+01:00

what have i done since april

2011-06-08T20:22:00.000+01:00

not much.

2011-06-06T18:37:00.000+01:00

i love nerd music!

2011-06-06T16:25:00.001+01:00

in other news headlines

2011-06-06T16:24:00.000+01:00

life is pretty shitty at the moment

waiting for that ray of sunshine

EFFINTASTIC!

2011-06-06T16:23:00.000+01:00

this is super late, but sade was probs the best concert i've ever been too.
it was more like an art piece rather than a concert.
the seats were pretty naf and the stage was small but she was just perfection, the sets were AAAAMAAAZING! like i've never been to a concert where so much effort has been put into the set.
love to see her again, no doubt about that.

2011-05-24T17:05:00.000+01:00

dont worry about a thing, cause every little thing is gonna be alright

I really hope you're right Bob

2011-05-21T13:10:00.002+01:00

nekked and famus

2011-05-21T12:46:00.000+01:00

2011-05-21T11:44:00.001+01:00

i know this is fan made....but ohh maa gaaawd!

to watch them live...if only!

2011-05-18T22:25:00.001+01:00

Money For Nothing from Gatestone Media Ltd on Vimeo.

"I pressed F13 for extra bass"

2011-04-26T08:30:00.002+01:00

2011-04-24T08:26:00.002+01:00

i actually quite like this video.

lets go back in time...

2011-04-22T10:32:00.002+01:00

barbie wins i don't care what they say

2011-04-22T08:05:00.001+01:00

i know shutter speed is so last century but i quite like how this one came out

2011-04-16T20:53:00.000+01:00

cool music video

2011-04-15T14:36:00.001+01:00

makes me want to throw paint in peoples faces and record their reactions.

got her tickets through the post today XD

2011-04-12T22:09:00.000+01:00

jay z remixed this.

no words to describe her amazingness.

2011-04-11T20:05:00.000+01:00